Lowered Expectations

So I figured out that if I can just get Cs in LS and Econ, I can get a D in chem and still stay in. I don't know how I'm doing in econ, and I did pretty bad on the second midterm in LS, and realllllly bad on the second midterm in chem. Still, I'm a little more optimistic, even if I only have 3 days left. I don't know any chem at all, so this could be difficult, but hopefully I can learn enough to get a C on the final, and a D in the class, assuming I get Cs in the other two classes. It's sad that these are my goals now, Cs and Ds. Ugh. I mean, I'll still have to deal with some other stuff, like repeating too many classes, being behind in units, going to summer school, etc. Laaaaaame. So lame. But I hope I can do it.

I've been totally stressing about this whole situation, and like, today, I realized, God won't put me through anything I'm not capable of dealing with. So I prayed that he could give me the strength to trust in him, to trust that he has a plan. I was still afraid, of course, but now I feel a little better, having discovered the specifics of the grading thing.

I just can't wait to get this all over with. I think this has officially scared me straight. Like, this is possibly the lowest point in my life so far. Next quarter I'm going to class. I'm a fast learner when I go to class. If I just go, it should be okay.

On a side note, I can't wait to go on the road trip to Seattle with Emlyn! We haven't seen each other since summer, and this will be my first road trip with her, and I might even drive! (SAVE your comments...) We're going to visit friends in SF and Portland as well. This is like, my incentive. Well, besides the fact that I might get kicked out...Also, I bought a cross stitch kit on eBay. It should arrive Monday or Tuesday. I thought cross stitch was kinda lame at first, b/c you can't really make anything practical, but then I decided I don't care, b/c it's fun. It came with all the stuff to make a really pretty picture of a mermaid. It looks hard, but I'm willing, and excited (How dorky am I???). I did a keychain, and that was fun. Much smaller, though. The counting is kinda tedious, so I'm thinking next time, I'll buy a stamped pattern instead, which I think is sort of like a picture outline, and then you just "color" it in.

Anyway, I've wasted much too much time on here, so I should go study now.