Lowered Expectations

So I figured out that if I can just get Cs in LS and Econ, I can get a D in chem and still stay in. I don't know how I'm doing in econ, and I did pretty bad on the second midterm in LS, and realllllly bad on the second midterm in chem. Still, I'm a little more optimistic, even if I only have 3 days left. I don't know any chem at all, so this could be difficult, but hopefully I can learn enough to get a C on the final, and a D in the class, assuming I get Cs in the other two classes. It's sad that these are my goals now, Cs and Ds. Ugh. I mean, I'll still have to deal with some other stuff, like repeating too many classes, being behind in units, going to summer school, etc. Laaaaaame. So lame. But I hope I can do it.

I've been totally stressing about this whole situation, and like, today, I realized, God won't put me through anything I'm not capable of dealing with. So I prayed that he could give me the strength to trust in him, to trust that he has a plan. I was still afraid, of course, but now I feel a little better, having discovered the specifics of the grading thing.

I just can't wait to get this all over with. I think this has officially scared me straight. Like, this is possibly the lowest point in my life so far. Next quarter I'm going to class. I'm a fast learner when I go to class. If I just go, it should be okay.

On a side note, I can't wait to go on the road trip to Seattle with Emlyn! We haven't seen each other since summer, and this will be my first road trip with her, and I might even drive! (SAVE your comments...) We're going to visit friends in SF and Portland as well. This is like, my incentive. Well, besides the fact that I might get kicked out...Also, I bought a cross stitch kit on eBay. It should arrive Monday or Tuesday. I thought cross stitch was kinda lame at first, b/c you can't really make anything practical, but then I decided I don't care, b/c it's fun. It came with all the stuff to make a really pretty picture of a mermaid. It looks hard, but I'm willing, and excited (How dorky am I???). I did a keychain, and that was fun. Much smaller, though. The counting is kinda tedious, so I'm thinking next time, I'll buy a stamped pattern instead, which I think is sort of like a picture outline, and then you just "color" it in.

Anyway, I've wasted much too much time on here, so I should go study now.

Done with Midterms!!!

I took my last midterm today, for econ. WT heck, it's 9th week and the final is two weeks from today. Whatever. I'm finally done with them, only to have finals to look forward to, all three on the same day. I think I did okay...the true/false section was much easier this time, since I had actually read the book. Plus, he hates the government, and if you just know that, you can answer like half of them easily.

Some interesting sightings on the way back from the midterm. As you may or may not know (or care), this week is Beat '$C week here at UCLA, thought I'm pretty sure we all know we're going to lose. It's just one of those years. Anyway, the giant Bruin is all covered up with a special tent-type thing that secured to the ground with chains and locks. There are special little loops built into the cement for just this. On the tent thing, it says "The Bruin is Hibernating." Funny. Also, on one of the green mesh fences surrounding areas under construction, someone wrote, "fuck the fascists." I wonder what that person was referring to? It's possible that it's in referece to the UC Regents meeting they had a couple weeks ago. Apparently there are always a bunch of protests and stuff. I don't know. At work they told us to wear shirts under our uniforms in case the crowd got too rowdy. We have to be able to escape as regular students, not like, let them know that we work for the school or something, I guess.

Also, the sushi place in Ackerman smells like warm soy sauce in the morning.